There are two different kinds of negative power in this world. We’re all trapped and tricked and speared and stabbed and punched and kicked. Before you were born there are things already trying to attack you. That you can become a human, that you can be born and grow up to such age and have a chance to have good teaching and true enlightenment experience, no matter how little to begin with – that is truly a miracle already. Don’t look anywhere else for miracles.
Ah, God this… I try this, see. Even though I don’t look good with it but never mind, just see if it works. Oh, who are you? Oh, God. What is this? What kind of glasses is this? How many fingers? Oh my God! I don’t need the glasses with the degree (prescription). I just need to cover my… It’s reading glasses, I think. Very strong reading glasses. Oh God, no. I’ll get dizzy. If you look around, you see only black spots. Black spots like your head, like the one fleeing through my window yesterday. I can’t believe it. I can’t believe such things still happen to me. I mean, mostly they’re invisible, but this, yesterday… I guess, normally he is invisible, it’s just yesterday my eyes were too sharp – without these glasses, I see him. Because my window’s very high. So even a high person, I can see only half of the head. I saw a black head just running through. I said, “Who are you?” Because I felt something was not right. And then I thought maybe it’s the helper. But it was not, nobody. Don’t run away from me. Oh God. I got him.
Any more questions? No? Good. Then we meditate. I love to see you. I do. At the same time, I don’t. It’s complicated. I don’t know how to explain this conflict within myself. It’s well and good when I’m not too busy and not so bad physically. But sometimes when you are physically not well, you truly just like to hide inside the blanket. But can I do that? No. You think if I don’t see you, I have a lot of time. It’s not true. I’m just catching up with inside “homework,” and also many other things.
Just when I’m very busy, every other thing comes also. Like the helpers who take care of the dog-people, they just don’t listen. They hang around like they don’t want to go. And I have to deal with that every day. Otherwise, they do something else or do something else, or something else. Make me busy, and now I have to feed the dog(-people), I have to cook for the dog(-people) because they’re making more trouble when they cook or when they feed the dog(-people). I have even less space and even less time because I’m worrying about the dog(-people), and I have to keep telling them what to do.
Maya really exists. Believe me. And he as a group is trying very hard to “dislocate” me or “dismantle” me, whatever you call it. Everyday is like a battle. And I wrote in my diary; really, I said, “It seems like a miracle that this woman is still alive.” I mean, myself. The emotional, the mental, the psychological, and the physical are still here! Sometimes I wonder myself – it’s really a miracle. Because I heard many stories and I saw movies – some people face less problems than that, and just once in a while or maybe once in a lifetime, and they break down. We are blessed, brother. (Because we need You, so You have to stay here, so You have no choice.) Maybe like that. You are too strong. You’re too many, put together. Big lump of energy. “I want Her, want Her, want Her, want Her, want Master, I want Her, I want Her, I want Her.” Everybody has the same thought. So it’s so strong. Super strong, like UHU glue. Makes me stick around.
Alright, today just wanted to see you a little bit because otherwise you haven’t seen me for a long time. Just want to show you that I’m still here. Just that karma doesn’t let me alone. And it works; the maya doesn’t work directly on me, it just works through people around me. And that is the problem. They’re always successful. Any people who work around me are always good instruments. Not for me. Not good instruments for me – for maya. Because they’re weak, and they just attack them. Maybe their personality or their quality, having such connecting dots that maya can hook onto it. Just like big strong, not car but those trailers. They just have a little hook behind the trailer or in front of the trailer. And your car, even though smaller, looks very small, has a hook behind it. They just hook on the trailer and just take it, go. Like that.
Because it’s equipped with those things. If you want to hook a smaller car but it doesn’t have this kind of eye for you to hook on, then you’re also useless, helpless. But because this car, this trailer, is already equipped with something for you to hook on, even though very small, a very small something. And the hook’s also very small, but the big trailer goes very obediently together with the very little car, sedan. It’s like that. So, very difficult for us sometimes to escape maya’s hook. If you have just a little spot somewhere, a little eye somewhere, he will hook on and use you, and you don’t even know that they’re using you. This is the problem.
OK then. There are two different kinds of negative power in this world. We’re all trapped and tricked and speared and stabbed and punched and kicked. Before you were born there are things already trying to attack you. That you can become a human, that you can be born and grow up to such age and have a chance to have good teaching and true enlightenment experience, no matter how little to begin with – that is truly a miracle already. Don’t look anywhere else for miracles. When you’re born, if you know about medical… When you’re born, all kinds of elements… they call it element or something? (Factors.) What, love? (Factors.) (All kinds of factors.) No, it’s not factors, it’s something real. Factors, of course, yes. It’s like elements. They’re grabbing your skin. And if you don’t have enough protection inherent from your mother already, the moment you’re born, you’re kind of burned or disfigured, or your skin is kind of already being ruined. Your face, everything on your skin is being attacked immediately by the things in the air. The elements in the air, they’re called something. There is one word, the word for it. I mean it’s real; it’s almost like a physical attack on the babies.
And if the baby’s lucky and gets mother’s milk, he has more protection power as he’s growing up, until he’s stronger to withstand that. But when he was born, if the mother’s strong, he’s protected somehow already. But if the mother is kind of … smokes or indulging in poisonous substances, like meat, fish and stuff like that, not eating properly, not nourishing her body correctly, then the baby suffers. He or she just cannot tell you, too small. Suffers already from inside the mother’s womb, and the moment he’s born he suffers more than if he’s a child from a wholesome mother with a wholesome diet, wholesome way of life, like meditation or yoga or having a strong religious backup and is sincere in the heart, believes in God or Buddha, then the baby is very fortunate. These elements in the air have less chance to attack him or her. The more you know about these things, the more you feel really fortunate to be born intact, no damage of any kind, and growing up strongly until old age, still strong, like a young boy running everywhere. Very fortunate indeed. And having good teaching, a truly awakening essence inside, is more fortunate. Yes?
(I thought about this part before, and I think about why I’m still alive. In 20 years, I never went to a doctor.) Twenty years? (Twenty years since I started to practice. And sometimes I think about it, how in the world this happened. And one day I thought, just the way You said, is that something happened that it got me the courage to make the change, because I was into, really into... I was in a situation that it’s almost impossible to think that I would turn around to be anything spiritually.) Like 180 degrees. (Yes, a hund… Yes.) More than that? (So I think about it. Because I had not a problem with me, because whatever is in me had the courage to make the change and stick to it, right from day one. I think that’s what saved me from a lot of things, including dying, because I was supposed to die within two years. That was 20 years ago.) Oh! Then you will have more years to come. (Yes, I thank God for it. And I feel good every day and I feel good because of that energy that I feel that’s there.) Yeah, you look good. (Thank You.) Did you put some rouge on your face? (A what?) Rouge. (No, this is natural. Actually…) Makeup? (My beard is long, so I have more color.) Natural beauty? (Yes.)
You want to talk? OK, tell me. (Master, we have been brainstorming and we have, I think, a wonderful idea for [Supreme Master] TV, if You… We were thinking of introducing children – there is a family with four children, and then having them do a cooking show like weekly or daily even. Be really creative, involve arts and crafts, really natural. Maybe inviting some other people from other cultures, other children, and make it really dynamic. A little bit like a soap [TV sitcom] – people are waiting for the next program or the next day. Kind of making it really fun and creative. Do You think that’s possible?) You think for yourself. (Alright. Thank You.) You have to think for yourself. (Thank You.) I think for myself. I use my brain, you use yours. (Thank You.) It’s not fair to have to think for two. (That’s true. Thank You.) Whatever we do, we have to have a strong belief that it’s a good one. If it’s a good one, must have a strong belief, and then it will go smoothly. OK, now we meditate. OK? Meditate.
